So it starts with a face mask and hopefully ends with a healthier, happier lifestyle. Fingers crossed!

I’m your typical gonna start that diet tomorrow, join the gym next week, write that essay later, doing everything as my Mother would say ‘half-arsed’ I follow beauty blogs because I admire beauty, I’m envious of it. I don’t look in the mirror and think pity me, i’m not the most beautiful person in the room, but i’m certainly not the ugliest, that’s not ego talking just honesty, some days I feel I look great, others I wanna hide under a rock, a thought I think most can sympathise with.

So I woke up this morning, reached into my bag and grabbed the packet of jaffa cakes bought last night, not my healthiest option of breakfast, I’ve got into a terrible pattern of eating so much shit food and I am putting on the pounds, I feel shitty and lethargic, I hate shopping for clothes and feel slightly depressed looking in the mirror, it is definitely time for a change so today is the ‘tomorrow’ I am always promising myself, even though this morning wasn’t too great, the rest of the day was marginally better. 

For lunch I asked the chef at work for a tuna mayo sandwich with some crisps-not amazing but better than the deep fried shit I normally inhale. It came with fries as there were no crisps, honestly even when I try dieting is against me, no not dieting, eating healthy(er). So of course I ate the fries, they were right there! But I only ate half my sandwich in compensation.

Work is quite possibly the dullest part of my life, I work as a receptionist in a hotel, if anyone has worked in hospitality you will know what a drag this is. You’re either rushed off your feet or twiddling your thumbs there is rarely a happy medium, enough of my moaning everyone has issues  and mine in relation to this are relatively minor. This is just a side job to keep my finances up while attending uni-this is where I am happiest. As a student of English books are my absolute passion and being on summer break with less structure to my life is pretty terrible. I get stuck in a rut, work becomes even more unbearable as that is all I’m doing and my life feels like it becomes directionless.

Tomorrow I will wake up early and not sleep until it’s only an hour before work (2pm),I will get up and walk the dogs, injecting a bit of exercise into my day, do my skin routine to avoid eczema rashes which I HATE. (I’ll explain it in another post) and not consume a packet of Jaffa cakes for breakfast.

I will be productive, active and healthier.

Life is only what I make it and I will make it good.